Our Bodies Keep The Score- But We Can Also Re-Write it

I was asked the other day “how are you this resilient, despite all of the shit you’ve gone through?

I had to sit with it for a bit because of you asked me what contributed to my resiliency, I would say the amount of times I’ve had to keep bouncing forward because of everything I’ve gone through.

Our experiences shape us.

But then I got to thinking- maybe I’m resilient because I’ve also healed. I took responsibility for my healing, even when I didn’t ask to the experiences or cause the harm.

I am resilient because of my healing.

One of the most pivotal moments was during my masters and choosing to participate in first person action research. Essentially research on myself, through perspectives of others. Those I led, or was involved with during that time.

The amount of trauma work I’ve done through EMDR, and talk therapy. Books I’ve read, all of the journalling, practicing gratitude and mindfulness. All of those practices have contributed.

To have finished my first draft of my book on my experience with domestic violence has also been instrumental in my healing. It was like a weight has been lifted and I’m feeling so inspired to finally put my story out there.

Sometimes it feels like it’s just the beginning and I’m so excited for what comes next.